Hey, kamu.

iya, kamu.

aku punya sesuatu;

kabar baik dan buruk untukmu

mana yang mau kau dengar lebih dulu?

ok, kumulai dari kabar baik dulu.

tetapi kumohon jangan terkejut

jangan pula takut

ataupun terpaut

karena kabar baik dariku:

aku sangat mencintaimu.

dan kabar buruk dariku:

aku sangat ingin melupakanmu.

Untukmu yang jauh.

Bingung, harus mulai dari mana…

Cuma ingin cerita sedikit, yang mungkin tak penting bagi kamu, tapi penting bagiku untuk kamu tahu ini.

Aku rindu. Itu dua kata pertama yang kamu harus tahu. Mungkin kita baru kenal sebentar… Tapi aku harap kamu juga merasakannya. Namun kalau kamu tidak rindu padaku pun tidak apa-apa. Aku masih akan tetap rindu.

Kamu ingat, tidak? Senang, sedih, marah, capek, takut, kita alami bersama-sama. Banyak petualangan dan pengalaman berharga yang kita alami bersama. Kita bisa tertawa hingga menangis, entah apa yang kita tertawakan. Kita juga bisa menangis, saling mengerti. Bahkan kita juga bisa berbicara serius, tentang hal-hal yang terjadi di dunia ini.

Dulu, dimana ada kamu, pasti ada aku. Dimana ada aku, pasti ada kamu.

Tapi sekarang? Kamu jauh. Aku jauh.

Kita jauh.

Aku dan kamu sekarang punya kesibukan masing-masing, itu hal yang wajar. Menurutku, susah sekali untuk kita buat kumpul bareng makan-makan bahkan sekedar mengobrol santai lewat telepon pun jarang sekali. Kita hanya mengirim tulisan lewat internet. Tetapi aku bersyukur kita masih tetap berhubungan.

Sedikit cemburu melihat kamu bersama sahabat barumu yang keren itu. Karena dulu, itu adalah tempatku. Tetapi untunglah, aku disini juga menemukan sahabat-sahabat baru.

Aku harap kita bisa bertemu, dan bercerita hingga larut, persis seperti dulu.

See you, when i see you.

Untuk kamu,

sahabat yang jauh.

This post is dedicated to my bestest friends – who always listen and understand. If any of you are reading this, hi. ๐Ÿ™‚ 

PARDON THIS CHEESY POST. Just needed to let it all out. โค๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

3, 2, 1

Ten, nine, eight;

turn off your TV, honey

turn off your phone

take your loved one

look out the window

look at the sky.

Seven, six;

don’t you want to see magic

in the sky

on the last day

of 2016?

Five, four;

stay up late, coffee in hands

counting hours,

counting minutes,

counting seconds.

And three, two, one;

fireworks, trumpets

popped and heard

it marked the end

or marked the new?

But darling,

it doesn’t matter

let’s cheers

to a fresh beginning.

Eternal Buddies

Here’s a fun fact : i actually like pets.

Once i had a cat, his name was Emon. I named him after my favorite Japanese cartoon Doraemon. I had him when i was in kindergarten until i moved out from that house in first grade.

My mom wouldn’t let me bring him into my new house, i never knew why.

It’s weird because i do remember all of this. I was still little.

Emon had an orange fur with a mix of some beige fur. He was so cute and squishy. He loved fish and fresh milk. He loved his pink and white plate with a fish figure my mother gave me for him to eat.

I miss my cat. I miss rubbing his short neck. I miss him being around with his cuteย meowing sound. I miss him disturbing me. I miss him rubbing my feet with his fur. I miss playing with him. I miss seeing him waiting for me outside the front door after school. I miss him.

I miss my cat.

And now, it’s been a frickin eleven years, and only God knows if he’s still in this world or not. I don’t even have a photo of him…

I miss my cat. ๐Ÿ˜ฟ

Years later after Emon, i had two hamsters. They were super cute. My far cousin gave them to me and my sis. She gave them to us because she already had a lot of hamsters.

I built him a hamster house, it was from a big plastic jar. I even had hamster toys for them to play.

I play with them everyday after school. I love seeing their tiny little fingers eating some sunflower seeds.

Unfortunately, i got busy and started to be lazy to take care of my hamsters.

Then one of them died. And my dad doesn’t want the other one die too and gave it to one of his friends’ daughter.

Since then, i never had a pet again.

I am missing a little part of my childhood.

And, about dogs, i might actually like them. I love seeing dogs videos, being cute and all, loving his master. But since i’m not allowed to touch them by my religion, i never really had a chance to interact with one.

I actually want to keep a pet, just one. For me to play with, who listens to me and not complaining.

I miss having a pet.