Control Errors

When it comes to calmness, i have always been the best amongst my friends. It’s not that i can’t act crazy or anything, i just feel that when in an emergency, there is no need for us to be panicking. Whenever i’m panic, i can’t think of anything so i don’t see a point in that. I control myself and try to be as calm as i can facing the problem.

So i just shout, “STAY CALM OK CALM DOWN,” to everyone, including myself too. In urgent situation i like to calm myself by making myself think that it’s alright and everything is going to be ok.

“Just do what you have to do, and it’s gonna be all good,” i say to myself.

And i think it’s a good thing i have.

I remember one time when i was in a mountain called Merbabu in Central Java last March, i was hiking with some friends. Once i and the other 3 girls were left behind from the group. We were stuck in a difficult situation. The sun was starting to set and one of us couldn’t find her headlamp (she probably put it in the bottom of her bag). Then it was starting to rain, so we stopped for a while to put on our raincoat. But after that, rain fell heavily and the track was really slippery. One of us who didn’t find her headlamp was starting to panic. She screamed for help from our group, which would have been somewhere far from our position that time. I tried to calm her down but the panic spread to the other girl. And i couldn’t think of anything except for someone to come here pick us up so i started to scream with them. It was really chaotic.

I guess i failed at being calm HAHAHA. Still need to try and really calm myself.

“It’s all about finding the calm in the chaos.” – Donna Karan

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(guilty) Pleasures

– What is guilty pleasure?

I’m glad you asked.

A guilty pleasure is something you like but you don’t want others to know about.

– What is your guilty pleasure(s)?

Without being questioned, i would answer:

1. Food

I looooove food. I know i am a type of person who could easily get fat. But still, i can’t resist food! 😅 And for example, if i’m hanging out with my friends at the mall, and i don’t have much left on my wallet, i’d rather spend the money on food so they are not wasted in vain.


2. Sleep

I could turn into a nocturnal person when i have something interesting for me to do at night. Such as watching movies (or probably Korean dramas), blogging – figuring out what theme should i use and always end up with the same theme without changing a thing, or just enjoy surfing the internet. I would sleep at 4 am in the morning, and wake up at 1 pm while the sun is above our heads.

For me, being alone at night while everybody else in the house is sleeping is peaceful. You don’t have to be interrupted by anybody. Unless there’s something else, though; an invisible thing, trying to communicate with you. Well, if that’s the case, you’re screwed. 🙂

3. Watch satisfying videos

O H M Y G O D, this one! Love it love it love it! Watch satisfying videos could give me this weird feeling of excitement and amazed by it. I enjoy watching @annettelabedzki‘s paint videos or @i_ce_ny‘s rolled ice cream videos on Instagram, and i also love watching food porn, like YAAASSS. Their videos never fail making me look like this, literally:


4. Listening to a guy speaking with an accent

I mean, who doesn’t? 😉 I could listen to a guy with an accent talk all day long.

5. Not having to workout during holidays

Or store up some fat, literally.☺️ And always end up regretting it and then complain, while i eat more.

And done! Tell me in the comment section what are your guilty pleasures!

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Dream – To be Continued


a series of thoughts, images, and sensations occurring in a person’s mind during sleep.


Have you ever dreamt about something, then you woke up, and you fell back asleep again and got the continuation of your previous dream? Well, I have. And not only once, but more than three times…

At first it creeped me out thinking that it is not normal or something, but actually it is okay and it is rarely happen. So it kinda makes me feel special. 😉

How about you? Have you experienced something like this? Tell me! 

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Sing and chaos

For anyone of you who likes to sing and have a great voice, i envy you. Really. I mean it.

I enjoy singing (i mean, who doesn’t?). But i only sing in my bedroom for fun or sometimes in the shower. Because of my voice, i don’t have enough confidence to sing in public. It’s pathetic i know.

When i speak, i sounded like my vocal cords are squished into something. I sounded low but shrill? I don’t even know how to explain it.

So one day in the music class, the teacher told us that we must sing and it will be scored. Anyone who got a great score could join the choir and perform at the seniors’ graduation. And i was just like, wow. Seniors’ grad. I wanna be there, i want to see my crush! Hohoho. But one thing, how am i supposed to SING without sounding like a seal? 😦

So yeah. I just sing like i always sing. And it turned out really bad… Like i always knew it would be.

It was a chaos.

I listened to my friends, some of them have a really great voice and they got to perform at the seniors’ grad. Well, congrats pals, you deserve it. Please tell my crush i said hi.

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Why i’m (not) missing my favorite.

What’s the most time you’ve ever spent apart from your favorite person? Tell us about it.

When i got this question i thought of so many people in my life. My parents, my best friends, my crush(es), my significant other, my favorite cousin, and so on. But after i re-think about it, i would answer:


Yes, i never spent my whole life apart from my favorite person. Because that person is myself! Hahaha.

Go ahead, laugh. But i’m saying the truth. Just as Henry David Thoreau said in his book called ‘Walden’,

“I love to be alone. I never found the companion that was so companionable as solitude.”

Sir, you are super correct. I couldn’t agree more.

I love being alone. Spending time with my own self. Finding my peace. It is such a beautiful feeling. Far from all the people and dramas. Away from faking myself to be liked and accepted by the society.

Don’t get me wrong, i love hanging out with people. I love having fun with my best friends. I love sharing stories with people who care about me.

But when you’re surrounded by so many people everyday, you will crave for solitude.

Unfortunately, when we say that we like being alone, people sometimes just don’t get it. They label us as introverts or anti-social.

Honestly, it’s not like that. Because we are not. We just love our quality time with ourself. Is there anything wrong with it? No, of course not! And i’m pretty sure society needs to fix this. To understand each other. To not judge and label people whatever you think they are. And according to my ambivert-self, I love being around people, but i love being alone, too. I hope you understand what i’m feeling.

Being alone can teach you a lot. You often lost inside your mind, and you get to think deeply about life. It gives you many different perspective of the world. You get to know yourself a lot better. And you begin to love and appreciate yourself more. Remember! Talking to uninteresting people, being bored in your circle, or hanging out with your so-called-friends, is not worth your precious time.

“We are alone, but not lonely.” Cheers!

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